Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
excerpt from farewell CY email
3 bits of advice from me to you:
1) No is not an option. Think of a creative way to turn it into a yes. People usually want to agree with things but if they do not feel comfortable with the situation they usually will decline. Try and make it comfortable.
2) There will always be obstacles. Though you may receive 100,000 “No’s,” remember it only takes a couple of “Yes’s” for something to happen. Never give up!
3) If you want to do something… DO IT! Refer to #1 and #2 for any questions.
It has been a pleasure and honor serving alongside all of you. I will be continuing my service to the community through Volunteers in Public Schools in Baton Rouge. This is a decision that I had to make for myself. City Year Louisiana is a work in progress and you all do AMAZING work. Keep it up and we will make Louisiana a better place for our kids. If you would like to keep in touch: angelaplau@gmail.com. See you at graduation.
Yours in service,
Angela Lau
1) No is not an option. Think of a creative way to turn it into a yes. People usually want to agree with things but if they do not feel comfortable with the situation they usually will decline. Try and make it comfortable.
2) There will always be obstacles. Though you may receive 100,000 “No’s,” remember it only takes a couple of “Yes’s” for something to happen. Never give up!
3) If you want to do something… DO IT! Refer to #1 and #2 for any questions.
It has been a pleasure and honor serving alongside all of you. I will be continuing my service to the community through Volunteers in Public Schools in Baton Rouge. This is a decision that I had to make for myself. City Year Louisiana is a work in progress and you all do AMAZING work. Keep it up and we will make Louisiana a better place for our kids. If you would like to keep in touch: angelaplau@gmail.com. See you at graduation.
Yours in service,
Angela Lau
SHOWCASE EVENT FINALLY OVER!
what can i say? it didn't work out smoothly, but it worked out....
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Q: what is this showcase?
A: it is part of my city year heroes program. it was my assignment to be in charge of it, everything from logistics, promo, donations, programming to everything in between. i only had 4 weeks to do it. i had it all planned out in my head running smooth, but then yesterday, well, it didn't work out smoothly, but it worked out.
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i'm feeling sooo much better though, undeniably so. this morning i woke up, took a shower and leisurely got ready for today. i went out to the back with philbert and let him run around while i made my list of TTD (things to do), sitting on the steps, sometimes swigs of wine from my bottle (shiraz is where it's at)...and even made a HUGE delicious salad for lunch.
speaking of: my skin's getting way better. i was kind of stressed last week about the showcase but tried to keep cool, and tried to keep up good eating habits, and as of late bought ointments, lotions, body washes, vaseline, pills...all to keep the eczema at bay. whatever i've been doing has been clearing me up, i intend to keep this up too until i win this battle...
for the first time in a while, i am truly optimistic and hopeful.
i plan on reflecting on the showcase, list pros & cons, send thank you's to the ones who helped me out, then look forward to the future and work on things i've neglected for the other more time-sensitive things (f.e. juan&marcia's wedding, and south by southwest).
take a deep breath, relax, work slowly and calmly. it's just work...not my life.
PS--i designed that flyer, pretty pro lookin huh? :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
MBG-NOLA COLLIDE!
MBG rides in: Juan & Marcia & Philbert are sleeping. Me=King of the Hill, recovering from work. Clay just came home from Cowpoke's. Joey=disappeared in Cowpoke's "never to be seen again." Then we all meet up and King of the Hill doesn't matter anymore! Phil's ears perk up. Lindsey is reparking! Everyone hugs! Phil's wagging his tail and his butt!
I walk over to get beer. Hunter takes out his tofu sandwich. Things are opened, rolled, consumed. We relax from the long day, the road.
Pretty soon Hunter busts out his toolkit and in no time he and Justin looked like a coupla regla bike-docs in the middla da room and were all there, havin a great time reunited. They finished the repair and a few of us get on the go--out for an adventure . I can't comment anymore as I didn't go on that journey--I stayed back with Lindsey and Philbert and all pretty much passed out. I woke up 2-3 hours later, to Juan, Marcia and Lindsey talkin. I got up and got ready to go back to Htown and saw Jason sleepin but no Clay, Hunter, Little Bike or Justin. And that was the last time I saw my beloved bike community. I have been contemplating certain topics as of late, including but not limited to: identity, cultures, comparing and contrasting two different, completely unique environments. Dogs. Friends. Family. Organic. All natural...work with what you've got. Savor the moments. You can't control people. You can't own people.
I walk over to get beer. Hunter takes out his tofu sandwich. Things are opened, rolled, consumed. We relax from the long day, the road.
Pretty soon Hunter busts out his toolkit and in no time he and Justin looked like a coupla regla bike-docs in the middla da room and were all there, havin a great time reunited. They finished the repair and a few of us get on the go--out for an adventure . I can't comment anymore as I didn't go on that journey--I stayed back with Lindsey and Philbert and all pretty much passed out. I woke up 2-3 hours later, to Juan, Marcia and Lindsey talkin. I got up and got ready to go back to Htown and saw Jason sleepin but no Clay, Hunter, Little Bike or Justin. And that was the last time I saw my beloved bike community. I have been contemplating certain topics as of late, including but not limited to: identity, cultures, comparing and contrasting two different, completely unique environments. Dogs. Friends. Family. Organic. All natural...work with what you've got. Savor the moments. You can't control people. You can't own people.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
GLUTEN FREE NUTS AND GRAINS
* Almond flour low carb alternative to wheat flour
* Amaranth (extremely nutritious)
* Arrowroot (great as a thickener for soups and sauces)
* Buckwheat (not a form or wheat, despite its name)
* Millet (not just bird feed!)
* Quinoa (pronounced keen-wah) a real superfood!
* Rice a good form of starch but with less protein than other grains
* Tapioca (used for more than that horrible pudding you ate at school!) is produced from a root
* Chickpeas or garbanzo beans (ground into a flour called Gram or besan)
* Lentils(a small round pulse that doesn't need soaking overnight before cooking)
* Carob (a sweet flour, it is made from the ground bean pods rather than the beans themselves)
* Coconut flour
* Corn or maize
* Job's tears can be used as a substitute for pearl barley
* Soy beans can be used in a similar way to grains...flakes, grits, flour and bran
* Sesame
* Sunflower seeds
* Sweet Chestnuts
* Sorghum or milo
* Teff grain - the tiniest grain in the world!
* Potato (yes it can be made into a flour-like starch)
* Amaranth (extremely nutritious)
* Arrowroot (great as a thickener for soups and sauces)
* Buckwheat (not a form or wheat, despite its name)
* Millet (not just bird feed!)
* Quinoa (pronounced keen-wah) a real superfood!
* Rice a good form of starch but with less protein than other grains
* Tapioca (used for more than that horrible pudding you ate at school!) is produced from a root
* Chickpeas or garbanzo beans (ground into a flour called Gram or besan)
* Lentils(a small round pulse that doesn't need soaking overnight before cooking)
* Carob (a sweet flour, it is made from the ground bean pods rather than the beans themselves)
* Coconut flour
* Corn or maize
* Job's tears can be used as a substitute for pearl barley
* Soy beans can be used in a similar way to grains...flakes, grits, flour and bran
* Sesame
* Sunflower seeds
* Sweet Chestnuts
* Sorghum or milo
* Teff grain - the tiniest grain in the world!
* Potato (yes it can be made into a flour-like starch)
some more raw food recipes...
the following are from rawglow.com
Green Soup
Cecilia's version of Energy Soup
Ingredients
1/2 English cucumber roughly chopped
5 ribs celery roughly chopped
1/4 cup dulse seaweed
1/2 bell pepper
2 small tomatoes
2 tablespoons raw cabbage sauerkraut
1 teaspoon Simply Organic All Purpose Seasoning (www.frontiercoop.com) or other desired seasoning
1/2 cup greens chopped (spinach, chard, kale, mixed or baby greens)
1/2 avocado
Garnish:
1 cup sprouts
Add ingredients in blender, except garnishes, and blend until smooth. Add more or less dulse and seasonings if you prefer. Garnish with your choice of dulse, sprouts, chopped bell pepper, parsley, tomatoes, avocado, and greens. For an extra green soup you can add a teaspoon of green powder such as spirulina.
* If kale is bitter only add two leaves.
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Healing Soup
Ingredients
an alkanizing, mineralizng, nutrient dense soup
1 young coconut water
1 English Cucumber
1/2 bell pepper
2 celery ribs
1/2 avocado
juice from 1 lime
2 large chard leaves or 4 small
3 green onion
pinch cayenne pepper
small handful of cilantro, mint, rosemary, or any favorite combo of fresh herbs
small handful Dulse seaweed (optional)
Blend coconut water, 1/2 English cucumber, 2 ribs celery, 1/2 avocado, chard leaves, 1 green onion, lime juice, seaweed, and pinch of cayenne in a powerful blender until smooth. Then add the 1/2 bell pepper, 1/2 English cucumber, 2 green onions, and the handfuls of fresh herbs. Pulse a few times until the herbs are roughly chopped. Garnish with tomato, avocado, bell pepper, green onion, and fresh herbs.
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Cauliflower Rice with Ginger Lime Sauce
Ginger Lime Sauce
1 lime juiced
1 kaffir lime leave (optional)
2 young coconut waters
1 inch knob ginger
2 teaspoons light (chickpea, brown rice, or white) miso
1/8 teaspoon cayenne or ground chili flakes
1 tiny little piece of a red chili pepper (optional)
1 small handful of basil leaves
2 avocados ( adjust avocados to how creamy you would like the dressing)
Blend all ingredients in the blender until smooth.
Cauliflower Rice
2 heads of cauliflower processed with the S-blade in the food processor until a rice like consistency
Garnish
Chopped green onion, cilantro, basil, mango, and bell pepper
Pour sauce over rice and garnish.
Green Soup
Cecilia's version of Energy Soup
Ingredients
1/2 English cucumber roughly chopped
5 ribs celery roughly chopped
1/4 cup dulse seaweed
1/2 bell pepper
2 small tomatoes
2 tablespoons raw cabbage sauerkraut
1 teaspoon Simply Organic All Purpose Seasoning (www.frontiercoop.com) or other desired seasoning
1/2 cup greens chopped (spinach, chard, kale, mixed or baby greens)
1/2 avocado
Garnish:
1 cup sprouts
Add ingredients in blender, except garnishes, and blend until smooth. Add more or less dulse and seasonings if you prefer. Garnish with your choice of dulse, sprouts, chopped bell pepper, parsley, tomatoes, avocado, and greens. For an extra green soup you can add a teaspoon of green powder such as spirulina.
* If kale is bitter only add two leaves.
************************************************************************************
Healing Soup
Ingredients
an alkanizing, mineralizng, nutrient dense soup
1 young coconut water
1 English Cucumber
1/2 bell pepper
2 celery ribs
1/2 avocado
juice from 1 lime
2 large chard leaves or 4 small
3 green onion
pinch cayenne pepper
small handful of cilantro, mint, rosemary, or any favorite combo of fresh herbs
small handful Dulse seaweed (optional)
Blend coconut water, 1/2 English cucumber, 2 ribs celery, 1/2 avocado, chard leaves, 1 green onion, lime juice, seaweed, and pinch of cayenne in a powerful blender until smooth. Then add the 1/2 bell pepper, 1/2 English cucumber, 2 green onions, and the handfuls of fresh herbs. Pulse a few times until the herbs are roughly chopped. Garnish with tomato, avocado, bell pepper, green onion, and fresh herbs.
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Cauliflower Rice with Ginger Lime Sauce
Ginger Lime Sauce
1 lime juiced
1 kaffir lime leave (optional)
2 young coconut waters
1 inch knob ginger
2 teaspoons light (chickpea, brown rice, or white) miso
1/8 teaspoon cayenne or ground chili flakes
1 tiny little piece of a red chili pepper (optional)
1 small handful of basil leaves
2 avocados ( adjust avocados to how creamy you would like the dressing)
Blend all ingredients in the blender until smooth.
Cauliflower Rice
2 heads of cauliflower processed with the S-blade in the food processor until a rice like consistency
Garnish
Chopped green onion, cilantro, basil, mango, and bell pepper
Pour sauce over rice and garnish.
a revolution in diet
health is a natural state affected by surroundings and the internal. balance. toxins are something that can invade and affect health; cannot be completely removed but can be reaction can be controlled. REACTION CAN BE CONTROLLED. ### notice patterns. behavioral patterns, cause and effect patterns. be damn near obsessive. jot everything down. be more aware of the specific details of your body's daily movements and reactions. everything has a story to tell. every thing means something. deciphering the meaning out of the convoluted subtle language of the cosmos is definitely a daunting task for even the most sublime being imaginable.
Our body is made of food energy, light energy, fire, water and air. the most common cause of eczema is malnutrition. perhaps a lack of nutrients, something compensating for something. running out cuz that's not a sustainable way to live (buzz word of the new century = sustainable). balance alkaline and acid in food and body. i need a juicer.
Timing of Eating - Natural Body Cycle:
You should eat in compliance with the body's metabolic cycle . The body seems to have three different metabolic periods which cycle every 24 hours.
1. Elimination and maintenance period: From 4am to noon the cells are dumping waste products, and manufacturing and/or repairing cells. Choose foods for breakfast that allow your body to continue the process of elimination and maintenance.
2. Digestive period: From noon to 8pm the body's metabolism is geared towards digestion. Since digestion of foods demands a tremendous amount of energy, it would make sense to eat the biggest meal our body can digest between noon and 8pm (Cousens, pp. 101-102). The earlier within this time frame, the better (I personally eat my biggest meal between 3:30 and 6pm).
3. Assimilation period: From 8pm to 4am the body is mobilizing nutrients and directing them to the cells.
Eating in compliance with these three metabolic periods will afford more efficient digestion, assimilation, cleansing and maintenance of the cells and therefore proper healing can occur.
Here's how I've learned to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner so that what I eat honors the function of the metabolic periods.
Breakfast:
Start your day with fruits. They are the simplest and most efficient way for the body to produce energy and to continue the process of elimination and maintenance.
* Eat some raw fruits in the morning: apples (eat the skin also), pears, oranges, bananas....etc. or,
* Make a fruit smoothie. Add into the blender with some spring water or fresh coconut water, some of your favorite fruits. Examples: bananas, mangos, papayas, figs, different types of berries, peaches, dates, apricots and coconut meat. The only fruits not to add in the smoothie mix are melons, blueberries and grapefruit. It is recommended that you eat these fruits separately. If you are worried about the sugar content of the fruits, then choose your fruits from the low-glycemic foods family to start your day with. Here's a list: apples, oranges, cherries, peaches, all berries, plums and pears. These fruits will release their glucose into the blood more slowly and thus require a more moderate insulin response.
Add to your smoothie two tablespoons of golden flax seeds freshly ground in a coffee grinder and the following super food supplements: wild crafted blue green algae, green drink mix, organic unheated coconut oil and probiotics. It is highly recommended that you add all of the superfood supplements in your morning smoothie.
Lunch:
Lunch time occurs during the digestion period. I recommend you eat this meal before 4pm.
For cooking use either fresh, unheated coconut oil or ghee (clarified butter). For cold preparation, use extra virgin olive oil. Veggies are either lightly steamed or raw.
Choose from the following lunch meals:
1. Salmon and vegetables.
2. Halibut and vegetables.
3. Oysters and vegetables
4. Brown rice and vegetables.
5. Sweet potatoes and vegetables.
6. Potatoes and vegetables.
7. Boiled eggs and vegetables.
8. Soft raw goat cheese and vegetables.
9. Ezekiel or Manna bread (sprouted grains) with avocado, tomato, cilantro, and/or olives.
10. Vegetable soup and ezekiel bread or salad.
11. Large salad with an assortment of vegetables with added raw nuts or soft raw goat cheese. Make your own fresh salad dressing, (my favorite recipe is a mix of raw almond butter, apple cider vinegar, fresh lemon, tamari sauce, maple syrup, cumin powder, garlic powder, and some fresh assortment of herbs).
12. Steamed green beans with boiled potatoes and a small salad.
13. Miso soup, brown rice and steamed vegetables.
14. Sauted mushrooms in coconut oil with tamari sauce for taste mixed with brown rice and a small salad.
15. Mashed potatoes using coconut milk and butter, with sauted mushrooms in tamari sauce and a small salad.
Dinner:
Dinner time occurs during the digestion period. I recommend you eat this meal by 8pm. A glass of vegetable juice at night is the most important meal to help you heal from eczema quickly. Make sure you drink a 16 to 24 oz. dark green veggie juice every night . (This veggie juice would consist mostly of dark green vegetables such as parsley, kale, cucumber, zucchini, bell pepper, celery and cilantro).
Some recommended vegetables for nightly juice:
* Celery - two stalks. Celery gives the body a natural diuretic effect and aids in the elimination of carbon dioxide from the body. The sodium content will neutralize acid ash (residue of acidic foods) in the body,
* Parsley - 1/2 bunch. Extremely high in nutrients. An excellent cleanser and potentiator of all bodily functions.
* Carrots - Two med. size. Because most of the phytochemicals are located at the top part of the carrot, don't cut the top off, instead leave the hat part, but discard the green shoots.
* Cilantro - 1/4 bunch. Has the ability to remove mercury, lead, cadmium and other heavy metals from the body.
* Kale - 2 to 3 leaves. A very nutrient rich vegetable. One of the best cancer fighting vegetables found on our planet. Kale is the richest of all leafy greens in carotenoids (powerful anti-cancer agents). Kale's calcium content is easily assimilated, making it a wonder food for arthritis, osteoporosis, bone loss disorders and skin health.
* Cucumber - 1/2 cucumber. A great diuretic (helps remove excess fluids from the body because it promotes urination). Excellent as a blood cleanser. (If you burn your skin, cut a cucumber open and apply it for relief from pain.)
* An apple to sweeten your juice.
Add and alternate, in very moderate amounts, to your basic vegetable juice every night: 1/4 beet, some cabbage, zucchini, bell pepper, bok choy... etc.
If you are still hungry after this drink, eat some raw (organic whenever possible) nuts and/or seeds. Pine nuts (highest protein content of all nuts), walnuts, pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds (unsalted and raw), and soaked almonds.
Sometimes, you might come back from work too tired to juice, we suggest you make a bowl of salad, add raw nuts and toss. Make sure you make your own fresh salad dressing.
Snacks:
1. Fresh or dehydrated fruits (avoid dehydrated fruits if you are diabetic).
2. Freshly cut up vegetables like cucumber or carrots.
3. Unsalted nuts or seeds.
P.S.--
-unheated, organic coconut oil
-sea vegetables/bluegreen algae/leafy greens
-garlic
-probiotics galore
-papayas
-celery, zucchini, mangoes, prunes
-sunflower seeds
-anise, caraway, fennel seeds + ginger
Our body is made of food energy, light energy, fire, water and air. the most common cause of eczema is malnutrition. perhaps a lack of nutrients, something compensating for something. running out cuz that's not a sustainable way to live (buzz word of the new century = sustainable). balance alkaline and acid in food and body. i need a juicer.
Timing of Eating - Natural Body Cycle:
You should eat in compliance with the body's metabolic cycle . The body seems to have three different metabolic periods which cycle every 24 hours.
1. Elimination and maintenance period: From 4am to noon the cells are dumping waste products, and manufacturing and/or repairing cells. Choose foods for breakfast that allow your body to continue the process of elimination and maintenance.
2. Digestive period: From noon to 8pm the body's metabolism is geared towards digestion. Since digestion of foods demands a tremendous amount of energy, it would make sense to eat the biggest meal our body can digest between noon and 8pm (Cousens, pp. 101-102). The earlier within this time frame, the better (I personally eat my biggest meal between 3:30 and 6pm).
3. Assimilation period: From 8pm to 4am the body is mobilizing nutrients and directing them to the cells.
Eating in compliance with these three metabolic periods will afford more efficient digestion, assimilation, cleansing and maintenance of the cells and therefore proper healing can occur.
Here's how I've learned to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner so that what I eat honors the function of the metabolic periods.
Breakfast:
Start your day with fruits. They are the simplest and most efficient way for the body to produce energy and to continue the process of elimination and maintenance.
* Eat some raw fruits in the morning: apples (eat the skin also), pears, oranges, bananas....etc. or,
* Make a fruit smoothie. Add into the blender with some spring water or fresh coconut water, some of your favorite fruits. Examples: bananas, mangos, papayas, figs, different types of berries, peaches, dates, apricots and coconut meat. The only fruits not to add in the smoothie mix are melons, blueberries and grapefruit. It is recommended that you eat these fruits separately. If you are worried about the sugar content of the fruits, then choose your fruits from the low-glycemic foods family to start your day with. Here's a list: apples, oranges, cherries, peaches, all berries, plums and pears. These fruits will release their glucose into the blood more slowly and thus require a more moderate insulin response.
Add to your smoothie two tablespoons of golden flax seeds freshly ground in a coffee grinder and the following super food supplements: wild crafted blue green algae, green drink mix, organic unheated coconut oil and probiotics. It is highly recommended that you add all of the superfood supplements in your morning smoothie.
Lunch:
Lunch time occurs during the digestion period. I recommend you eat this meal before 4pm.
For cooking use either fresh, unheated coconut oil or ghee (clarified butter). For cold preparation, use extra virgin olive oil. Veggies are either lightly steamed or raw.
Choose from the following lunch meals:
1. Salmon and vegetables.
2. Halibut and vegetables.
3. Oysters and vegetables
4. Brown rice and vegetables.
5. Sweet potatoes and vegetables.
6. Potatoes and vegetables.
7. Boiled eggs and vegetables.
8. Soft raw goat cheese and vegetables.
9. Ezekiel or Manna bread (sprouted grains) with avocado, tomato, cilantro, and/or olives.
10. Vegetable soup and ezekiel bread or salad.
11. Large salad with an assortment of vegetables with added raw nuts or soft raw goat cheese. Make your own fresh salad dressing, (my favorite recipe is a mix of raw almond butter, apple cider vinegar, fresh lemon, tamari sauce, maple syrup, cumin powder, garlic powder, and some fresh assortment of herbs).
12. Steamed green beans with boiled potatoes and a small salad.
13. Miso soup, brown rice and steamed vegetables.
14. Sauted mushrooms in coconut oil with tamari sauce for taste mixed with brown rice and a small salad.
15. Mashed potatoes using coconut milk and butter, with sauted mushrooms in tamari sauce and a small salad.
Dinner:
Dinner time occurs during the digestion period. I recommend you eat this meal by 8pm. A glass of vegetable juice at night is the most important meal to help you heal from eczema quickly. Make sure you drink a 16 to 24 oz. dark green veggie juice every night . (This veggie juice would consist mostly of dark green vegetables such as parsley, kale, cucumber, zucchini, bell pepper, celery and cilantro).
Some recommended vegetables for nightly juice:
* Celery - two stalks. Celery gives the body a natural diuretic effect and aids in the elimination of carbon dioxide from the body. The sodium content will neutralize acid ash (residue of acidic foods) in the body,
* Parsley - 1/2 bunch. Extremely high in nutrients. An excellent cleanser and potentiator of all bodily functions.
* Carrots - Two med. size. Because most of the phytochemicals are located at the top part of the carrot, don't cut the top off, instead leave the hat part, but discard the green shoots.
* Cilantro - 1/4 bunch. Has the ability to remove mercury, lead, cadmium and other heavy metals from the body.
* Kale - 2 to 3 leaves. A very nutrient rich vegetable. One of the best cancer fighting vegetables found on our planet. Kale is the richest of all leafy greens in carotenoids (powerful anti-cancer agents). Kale's calcium content is easily assimilated, making it a wonder food for arthritis, osteoporosis, bone loss disorders and skin health.
* Cucumber - 1/2 cucumber. A great diuretic (helps remove excess fluids from the body because it promotes urination). Excellent as a blood cleanser. (If you burn your skin, cut a cucumber open and apply it for relief from pain.)
* An apple to sweeten your juice.
Add and alternate, in very moderate amounts, to your basic vegetable juice every night: 1/4 beet, some cabbage, zucchini, bell pepper, bok choy... etc.
If you are still hungry after this drink, eat some raw (organic whenever possible) nuts and/or seeds. Pine nuts (highest protein content of all nuts), walnuts, pumpkin seeds, sunflower seeds (unsalted and raw), and soaked almonds.
Sometimes, you might come back from work too tired to juice, we suggest you make a bowl of salad, add raw nuts and toss. Make sure you make your own fresh salad dressing.
Snacks:
1. Fresh or dehydrated fruits (avoid dehydrated fruits if you are diabetic).
2. Freshly cut up vegetables like cucumber or carrots.
3. Unsalted nuts or seeds.
P.S.--
-unheated, organic coconut oil
-sea vegetables/bluegreen algae/leafy greens
-garlic
-probiotics galore
-papayas
-celery, zucchini, mangoes, prunes
-sunflower seeds
-anise, caraway, fennel seeds + ginger
Friday, March 13, 2009
THIS IS THE TOOTH
sent to me by my sis. funny because today i took a pic of this exact same graff of einstein here in nola.
my sis and i are connected more than we know; times like this jog me out of mindless-worker bee-1984 style compliance; like a slapping me awake to the ever eternal fact that my connections with my loved ones (related or otherwise) are soo deep. and that the universe is alive and loves me (and all of us) more than we'll ever know.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
now i only have these left to do...
-figuring out my finances
-call social worker lady/finish food stamps forms before they CUT ME OFF!!!
-send ma my address so she can send me my tax forms
-schedule where/when to do taxes!
-finish those forms for AES
-call social worker lady/finish food stamps forms before they CUT ME OFF!!!
-send ma my address so she can send me my tax forms
-schedule where/when to do taxes!
-finish those forms for AES
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
what did i do today? (lots of jargon from my personal work world, this is mainly a note to self)
-created invitations
-got approval for invitations
-sent out email asking people who they want to invite
-had an update meeting
-created guidelines for heroes showcase projects
-sent thank yous to dave and cherie
-sent request to cherie for those MLK day photos
-got semi-approval for showcase venue
-worked with young heroes on their showcase!
-finished curriculum poster
-started working on inkinding packet for tomorrow
-make a spreadsheet for where/what/who to inkind from
-still need to write in-kinding letters, but I started to put together packets!
-sent email to team about leaving early 14 march and about doc's appt. 24 march
-i will go to office and create a list of people to invite
-still need to make a SHOWCASE one pager to send to mike billups
-still need to make memo for TLs/Team/Heroes to work on SHOWCASE
-send SHOWCASE one pager out to corps/staff, call for volunteer opps.
-still need to send my proposal to LA DIVINA
-still need to ask Dave about sponsoring FQF
-follow up on Lucas about playing a show here?
-figuring out my finances
-call social worker lady/finish food stamps forms before they CUT ME OFF!!!
-send ma my address so she can send me my tax forms
-schedule where/when to do taxes!
-finish those forms for AES
-got approval for invitations
-sent out email asking people who they want to invite
-had an update meeting
-created guidelines for heroes showcase projects
-sent thank yous to dave and cherie
-sent request to cherie for those MLK day photos
-got semi-approval for showcase venue
-worked with young heroes on their showcase!
-finished curriculum poster
-started working on inkinding packet for tomorrow
-make a spreadsheet for where/what/who to inkind from
-still need to write in-kinding letters, but I started to put together packets!
-sent email to team about leaving early 14 march and about doc's appt. 24 march
-i will go to office and create a list of people to invite
-still need to make a SHOWCASE one pager to send to mike billups
-still need to make memo for TLs/Team/Heroes to work on SHOWCASE
-send SHOWCASE one pager out to corps/staff, call for volunteer opps.
-still need to send my proposal to LA DIVINA
-still need to ask Dave about sponsoring FQF
-follow up on Lucas about playing a show here?
-figuring out my finances
-call social worker lady/finish food stamps forms before they CUT ME OFF!!!
-send ma my address so she can send me my tax forms
-schedule where/when to do taxes!
-finish those forms for AES
i blog lest i forget...or lose my notebook...
i want to remember. i write to remember, to focus my mind, to help myself visualize, to organize my efforts.
B vitamins are an active girl's best friends.
things i gotta remember to write about:
1. VISUALIZING MY OLDER SELF. i have been feeling weird lately because i cannot see my future self with my mind's eye. last night, i realized it: because this is about as far as i imagined myself when i was a little girl! of course.
this epiphany has relaxed me, and also made me rather excited because now i must find time to sit in silence, meditating about what kind of person i will be in the future, provided the world don't end, or the ice caps melt and drown us all, or that we war ourselves to death...it has also caused me some anxiety, however, because i am kind of afraid of pigeonholding myself...maybe i can just visualize big things, and the details can just, uhm, work themselves out.
i want to write my visualizations down, but i don't have internet at home, and also i don't know how safe i feel writing them in my notebook when, apparently, people love to read what i write when i'm not looking.
2. game plan for in-kinding
3. game plan for art show
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last night i fought back tears while meeting with my project manager. to meet the minimun requirements of service hours, i must catch up by working about 57 hours a week until graduation in june. i was freaking out because that's a SHIT TON of hours! in addition to my ice cream shop! i was frustrated because i started feeling resentment against city year for bullying it's way to top priority in my life, and things like art and getting invited to performances have to get pushed back, or declined, because my "year of national service" comes first. i resented city year for this because it's taken a lot of effort on my part, and years of networking and chiseling at myself to build credibility and some kind of reputation so that people will extend performance opportunities to me. all this work, and i've had to decline like 2-3 big performances since i've started my work with city year.
anyway, in short, i was feeling overwhelmed.
i went home, and spent a couple hours alone at home with my dog in silence. no tv, no music, just my thoughts. after some tried and true coping mechanisms i've got, a light came on in my head, and realized that there was no reason to feel defeated! working so much, staying after hours, etc. is a great way to fit in some personal work, and feel more relaxed during the day. I will no longer have to rush to fit everything into the standard 8 hours. i can even use it as a calming silent work time, which i am grateful for the opportunity to have.
i got excited at the idea of possibly triumphing over these things that seem overwhelming.
EXCERPT:
"It's all in the mind. As long as I can stay afloat, above all the stress and find moments throughout the day for peace, I should be fine.
Gotta float above the mess. Can I do it? Will I learn the lesson or will I sink? This may be the test to see if I can truly control my environment, my body with my mind. This is me taking control of my life.
I want so much to come out on top. I feel I am gonna be seriosuly testing my limits. What is this whole CITYYEAR shit? What have I gotten myself into? This organization, this thing I wasn't even aware of until that fateful day last summer; such an invasive entity, a bully almost, shoving its way to top priority in my life.
It's easy to be negative. It's easy to be jealous and defensive and scared. It's easy to be weak, and succumb. The exceptional ones are those who overcome, and if I can overcome then surely other people can too, and maybe they can find inspiration in my example and push themselves further than they ever thought they could go...
My time here--and my life in general--can be awesome or disasterous. It's up to ME how it will be. I'm glad it's this way, anyway, instead of me being a helpless victim of circumstances..."
So once again, positive thinking. I'm a big believer of positive mental attitudes overcoming bad situations. I believe in the power of the mind. sometimes we just have to deal with things, adapt. This is me adapting, and keeping cool and using the situation to my advantage, instead of letting it dominate me.
B vitamins are an active girl's best friends.
things i gotta remember to write about:
1. VISUALIZING MY OLDER SELF. i have been feeling weird lately because i cannot see my future self with my mind's eye. last night, i realized it: because this is about as far as i imagined myself when i was a little girl! of course.
this epiphany has relaxed me, and also made me rather excited because now i must find time to sit in silence, meditating about what kind of person i will be in the future, provided the world don't end, or the ice caps melt and drown us all, or that we war ourselves to death...it has also caused me some anxiety, however, because i am kind of afraid of pigeonholding myself...maybe i can just visualize big things, and the details can just, uhm, work themselves out.
i want to write my visualizations down, but i don't have internet at home, and also i don't know how safe i feel writing them in my notebook when, apparently, people love to read what i write when i'm not looking.
2. game plan for in-kinding
3. game plan for art show
_________________________________________
last night i fought back tears while meeting with my project manager. to meet the minimun requirements of service hours, i must catch up by working about 57 hours a week until graduation in june. i was freaking out because that's a SHIT TON of hours! in addition to my ice cream shop! i was frustrated because i started feeling resentment against city year for bullying it's way to top priority in my life, and things like art and getting invited to performances have to get pushed back, or declined, because my "year of national service" comes first. i resented city year for this because it's taken a lot of effort on my part, and years of networking and chiseling at myself to build credibility and some kind of reputation so that people will extend performance opportunities to me. all this work, and i've had to decline like 2-3 big performances since i've started my work with city year.
anyway, in short, i was feeling overwhelmed.
i went home, and spent a couple hours alone at home with my dog in silence. no tv, no music, just my thoughts. after some tried and true coping mechanisms i've got, a light came on in my head, and realized that there was no reason to feel defeated! working so much, staying after hours, etc. is a great way to fit in some personal work, and feel more relaxed during the day. I will no longer have to rush to fit everything into the standard 8 hours. i can even use it as a calming silent work time, which i am grateful for the opportunity to have.
i got excited at the idea of possibly triumphing over these things that seem overwhelming.
EXCERPT:
"It's all in the mind. As long as I can stay afloat, above all the stress and find moments throughout the day for peace, I should be fine.
Gotta float above the mess. Can I do it? Will I learn the lesson or will I sink? This may be the test to see if I can truly control my environment, my body with my mind. This is me taking control of my life.
I want so much to come out on top. I feel I am gonna be seriosuly testing my limits. What is this whole CITYYEAR shit? What have I gotten myself into? This organization, this thing I wasn't even aware of until that fateful day last summer; such an invasive entity, a bully almost, shoving its way to top priority in my life.
It's easy to be negative. It's easy to be jealous and defensive and scared. It's easy to be weak, and succumb. The exceptional ones are those who overcome, and if I can overcome then surely other people can too, and maybe they can find inspiration in my example and push themselves further than they ever thought they could go...
My time here--and my life in general--can be awesome or disasterous. It's up to ME how it will be. I'm glad it's this way, anyway, instead of me being a helpless victim of circumstances..."
So once again, positive thinking. I'm a big believer of positive mental attitudes overcoming bad situations. I believe in the power of the mind. sometimes we just have to deal with things, adapt. This is me adapting, and keeping cool and using the situation to my advantage, instead of letting it dominate me.
i hate it when people read my journals
the written ones, i mean. why is that? why do peopl feel compelled to pick up something that is clearly personal and look through it like its theirs?
my notebook is supposed to be a place in which i feel safe. i dont feel like that if i can't trust that people understand the privacy of one's notebook. "i shouldn't be leaving my stuff around carelessly anyway" they say but they shouldn't be reading them!
yet i am okay with a blog.
my notebook is supposed to be a place in which i feel safe. i dont feel like that if i can't trust that people understand the privacy of one's notebook. "i shouldn't be leaving my stuff around carelessly anyway" they say but they shouldn't be reading them!
yet i am okay with a blog.
Friday, March 06, 2009
wow, already...
i cant believe its march, february went by soooo fast.
i want to get a bumper sticker made, or a shirt, that says "I SURVIVED MARDI GRAS". that was by far the most invasive holiday i've ever experienced. crazier than christmas!
i've been trying to follow some very healthy advice lately:
relax. take things slowly. breathe.
i haven't been doing that. i notice that sometimes when i'm really busy it's like i'm holding my breath, why do i do that? it's weird. i'm literally suffocating beneath the pressures i have in my life. and then i don't know how long i've been doing that, like before i can notice i have been holding my breath. that worries me. i try to relax, take things slowly, breathe, and just focus on the moment. it's really hard to let go of thoughts and stresses like leaves floating in the stream...i want to dam it all up, keep running it through my head, keep focusing on it while focusing on something else...it's too much.
i really felt like i was going to explode because i was so overwhelmed and stressed, that i really did explode...in the form of really severe eczema.
therefore, like i've been saying, i've gotta take things slow, don't rush. i also shouldn't overload myself. and especially make time for quiet moments.
quiet moments i certainly miss. i used to have alot of those while i was in college, laid out on the school lawns, or just lost in a random aisle in the library, or just on a bench. i really miss that.
time is goin by so fast, but im tryin to take it slow.
totally unrelated: i must come up with a contingency plan for evacuation. i'm afraid the summer will yield 3 terrible hurricanes for Louisiana this year. how do i know? this prophet(?) told me he dreamt about it, and also it snowed (it also snowed the winter before katrina). i'm really scared about it...
i hope this forecast is completely wrong.
i want to get a bumper sticker made, or a shirt, that says "I SURVIVED MARDI GRAS". that was by far the most invasive holiday i've ever experienced. crazier than christmas!
i've been trying to follow some very healthy advice lately:
i haven't been doing that. i notice that sometimes when i'm really busy it's like i'm holding my breath, why do i do that? it's weird. i'm literally suffocating beneath the pressures i have in my life. and then i don't know how long i've been doing that, like before i can notice i have been holding my breath. that worries me. i try to relax, take things slowly, breathe, and just focus on the moment. it's really hard to let go of thoughts and stresses like leaves floating in the stream...i want to dam it all up, keep running it through my head, keep focusing on it while focusing on something else...it's too much.
i really felt like i was going to explode because i was so overwhelmed and stressed, that i really did explode...in the form of really severe eczema.
therefore, like i've been saying, i've gotta take things slow, don't rush. i also shouldn't overload myself. and especially make time for quiet moments.
quiet moments i certainly miss. i used to have alot of those while i was in college, laid out on the school lawns, or just lost in a random aisle in the library, or just on a bench. i really miss that.
time is goin by so fast, but im tryin to take it slow.
totally unrelated: i must come up with a contingency plan for evacuation. i'm afraid the summer will yield 3 terrible hurricanes for Louisiana this year. how do i know? this prophet(?) told me he dreamt about it, and also it snowed (it also snowed the winter before katrina). i'm really scared about it...
i hope this forecast is completely wrong.
the waters of march
Waters of March
A stick, a stone,
It's the end of the road,
It's the rest of a stump,
It's a little alone
It's a sliver of glass,
It is life, it's the sun,
It is night, it is death,
It's a trap, it's a gun
The oak when it blooms,
A fox in the brush,
A knot in the wood,
The song of a thrush
The wood of the wind,
A cliff, a fall,
A scratch, a lump,
It is nothing at all
It's the wind blowing free,
It's the end of the slope,
It's a beam, it's a void,
It's a hunch, it's a hope
And the river bank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the end of the strain,
The joy in your heart
The foot, the ground,
The flesh and the bone,
The beat of the road,
A slingshot's stone
A fish, a flash,
A silvery glow,
A fight, a bet,
The range of a bow
The bed of the well,
The end of the line,
The dismay in the face,
It's a loss, it's a find
A spear, a spike,
A point, a nail,
A drip, a drop,
The end of the tale
A truckload of bricks
in the soft morning light,
The shot of a gun
in the dead of the night
A mile, a must,
A thrust, a bump,
It's a girl, it's a rhyme,
It's a cold, it's the mumps
The plan of the house,
The body in bed,
And the car that got stuck,
It's the mud, it's the mud
Afloat, adrift,
A flight, a wing,
A hawk, a quail,
The promise of spring
And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the promise of life
It's the joy in your heart
A stick, a stone,
It's the end of the road
It's the rest of a stump,
It's a little alone
A snake, a stick,
It is John, it is Joe,
It's a thorn in your hand
and a cut in your toe
A point, a grain,
A bee, a bite,
A blink, a buzzard,
A sudden stroke of night
A pin, a needle,
A sting, a pain,
A snail, a riddle,
A wasp, a stain
A pass in the mountains,
A horse and a mule,
In the distance the shelves
rode three shadows of blue
And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the promise of life
in your heart, in your heart
A stick, a stone,
The end of the road,
The rest of a stump,
A lonesome road
A sliver of glass,
A life, the sun,
A knife, a death,
The end of the run
And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the end of all strain,
It's the joy in your heart.
A stick, a stone,
It's the end of the road,
It's the rest of a stump,
It's a little alone
It's a sliver of glass,
It is life, it's the sun,
It is night, it is death,
It's a trap, it's a gun
The oak when it blooms,
A fox in the brush,
A knot in the wood,
The song of a thrush
The wood of the wind,
A cliff, a fall,
A scratch, a lump,
It is nothing at all
It's the wind blowing free,
It's the end of the slope,
It's a beam, it's a void,
It's a hunch, it's a hope
And the river bank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the end of the strain,
The joy in your heart
The foot, the ground,
The flesh and the bone,
The beat of the road,
A slingshot's stone
A fish, a flash,
A silvery glow,
A fight, a bet,
The range of a bow
The bed of the well,
The end of the line,
The dismay in the face,
It's a loss, it's a find
A spear, a spike,
A point, a nail,
A drip, a drop,
The end of the tale
A truckload of bricks
in the soft morning light,
The shot of a gun
in the dead of the night
A mile, a must,
A thrust, a bump,
It's a girl, it's a rhyme,
It's a cold, it's the mumps
The plan of the house,
The body in bed,
And the car that got stuck,
It's the mud, it's the mud
Afloat, adrift,
A flight, a wing,
A hawk, a quail,
The promise of spring
And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the promise of life
It's the joy in your heart
A stick, a stone,
It's the end of the road
It's the rest of a stump,
It's a little alone
A snake, a stick,
It is John, it is Joe,
It's a thorn in your hand
and a cut in your toe
A point, a grain,
A bee, a bite,
A blink, a buzzard,
A sudden stroke of night
A pin, a needle,
A sting, a pain,
A snail, a riddle,
A wasp, a stain
A pass in the mountains,
A horse and a mule,
In the distance the shelves
rode three shadows of blue
And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the promise of life
in your heart, in your heart
A stick, a stone,
The end of the road,
The rest of a stump,
A lonesome road
A sliver of glass,
A life, the sun,
A knife, a death,
The end of the run
And the riverbank talks
of the waters of March,
It's the end of all strain,
It's the joy in your heart.
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