wow, already...

i cant believe its march, february went by soooo fast.

i want to get a bumper sticker made, or a shirt, that says "I SURVIVED MARDI GRAS". that was by far the most invasive holiday i've ever experienced. crazier than christmas!

i've been trying to follow some very healthy advice lately:

relax. take things slowly. breathe.

i haven't been doing that. i notice that sometimes when i'm really busy it's like i'm holding my breath, why do i do that? it's weird. i'm literally suffocating beneath the pressures i have in my life. and then i don't know how long i've been doing that, like before i can notice i have been holding my breath. that worries me. i try to relax, take things slowly, breathe, and just focus on the moment. it's really hard to let go of thoughts and stresses like leaves floating in the stream...i want to dam it all up, keep running it through my head, keep focusing on it while focusing on something else...it's too much.

i really felt like i was going to explode because i was so overwhelmed and stressed, that i really did explode...in the form of really severe eczema.

therefore, like i've been saying, i've gotta take things slow, don't rush. i also shouldn't overload myself. and especially make time for quiet moments.

quiet moments i certainly miss. i used to have alot of those while i was in college, laid out on the school lawns, or just lost in a random aisle in the library, or just on a bench. i really miss that.

time is goin by so fast, but im tryin to take it slow.


totally unrelated: i must come up with a contingency plan for evacuation. i'm afraid the summer will yield 3 terrible hurricanes for Louisiana this year. how do i know? this prophet(?) told me he dreamt about it, and also it snowed (it also snowed the winter before katrina). i'm really scared about it...

i hope this forecast is completely wrong.