Thursday, November 20, 2008

NEWS FROM NOLA #6


I fell behind on my updates because my laptop crapped out on me. I knew that day would come, and I'm just handling it in stride. I work with it. I've been writing more in my paper journal. Maybe later I will transcribe. But for now...quick and dirty:

**I've gotten into the Zeitgeist arts community here in NOLA. Very awesome because it includes awesome people like Kidd Jordan, Rob Cambre, and many others. I was also responsible for connecting the Zeitgeist Multidisciplinary Arts Center with City Year, and now they are partnering. That was very awesome and unexpected, who knew small actions could ripple into bigger things?

**Another ripple: got my friend Jonathan his first job at my gelato shop! It's my first time referring someone, and I think it's going to work out fine. I'm excited. Also, the bossman's thinkin of setting up a poetry circle on wednesday nights...

**Developed a serious case of athlete's foot. It's been like 2 weeks of hellfest pain. no fun at all. wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. this shit HURTS. i went to a free clinic, COMMON GROUND, and they really helped me. They had all kinds of people there: an herbalist, an acupuncturist, a general practioner, and dermatologist. I was blessed getting set up with that. It was COMPLETELY FREE (can't say that enough!) but I donated all the cash I had on me to their organization.

Having athlete's foot this bad has really taken a toll on my life. Let me count the ways:

1. It made me really crabby last week because I couldn't figure out what was happening to me, and what to do. That shit comes on really fast. It preoccupied me, so I wasn't being productive at work. My teammates probably felt unhappy with me.

2. I missed work yesterday and this past Tuesday. Sucks because I also called in for my gelato shop shift, and Lord knows I need that dough

3. NO SKATING!!!!! This might be like the worst thing of all. I hate this so much. Means I have to bike to the Quarter now, and it makes me nervous because I hate having to deal with flats. I pray to God angels guard my tires and keep me safe from tire troubles.

4. It HURT to stand up and work my shifts at the gelato shop. I am actually HANDICAPPED.

5. Gotta watch my dairy intake because the meds I'm taking are affected my calcium. Sucks because I sure love me some cheese. Almost everything in my fridge has milk in it.

6. NO SKATING! Did I mention this already?

7. Sometimes I have to hobble as I walk. And also I HAVE to wear flip flops. I hate it cuz my feet still get dirty, and I have to watch where I step to not bother my feet. Also, I don't like that constant schlak! schlak! schlak! sound that comes with such footwear; I find it bothersome.

8. I have been re-inspired to explore deconstruction of T-shirts. I'm excited because I'm scheduled to get a couple free t-shirts, one from the school I'm working in, and also one from the Po-Boy Festival that I'm going to volunteer at this Sunday!


**PO-BOY FESTIVAL! It's coming up! I'm working the beer booth and merchandise. It's gonna be a festival of JAZZFEST proportions, and I'm excited because the entrance is free, and theres going to be LOTS of great food. and I'll be doing beer so I might be able to sneak a swig or two...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

visualize to realize

I visualize blessings, and victories every day and especially today.

I visualize having a great day, and a victory in the courthouse. i visualize a great day at the gelato shop.

I will remember to bring some cds to work, and also that I will have ample time to go home, relax, play clarinet, clean bearings and skate to work.

I visualize having a great day with the kids!

I pray for positive energy and may I be a source of positivity, and hope.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

clearing it away

either i dont get enough sleep or i'm developing narcolepsy.

i need a new budget, shoulda did that when i started my second job.

i need to send paperwork to the food stamp place.

i need to drink more coffee i think.

despite everything, i'm glad i got the baby oil so my body wont feel so dry and itchy all the time, and i'm glad i got the coffeemaker because then i might be more awake...and i'm glad i got the bookshelf because then maybe our home will be more organized/homely.

i think i should just stop trying to be friends with my CY coworkers. we're not the same people, we aren't into the same things, and they dont understand what's going on. i hardly understand myself. i dont want to confuse them, dont want them to think wrong things, and i dont want to explain. this feels like one of those times when I have to choose. i better choose wisely and rightly. it hurts me to not choose my CY friends, but i don't know if they'd ever get it. clay's sacrificed so much, and has worked on growing so hard its like hes grown before my very eyes. my CY friends are younger than me, and are just different people. it hurts me to close them off because they have been so friendly and we have shared a lot together. i've loved teaching them, and them teaching me. but i'm afraid if i keep trying to be friends with them i'll just keep disappointing them, and i hate disappointing people more than anything.

blessings every day.